The scary moment when you realise you have no motivation left
Deep breath time as I am out of my comfort zone and have a confession to make.
Last month I had no motivation for my business. Phew – I said it!
I had a lot going on last month and was left both physically and emotionally drained. This created a downward spiral that I struggled to get out of. I am normally full of energy and motivation and the one who is keeping everyone else buoyed up. But suddenly I was the one needing help and I simply didn’t know where to turn.
I was having a mini meltdown!
I didn’t want to get out of bed and when I did, I didn’t want to work. Everything I did was half hearted and felt like I was wading through treacle. I had no motivation to carry on with my business. I was having a mini meltdown!
I was afraid of admitting how I was feeling as people expected me to be the leader. If I wasn’t coping and asked for help, how would people view me, especially clients? I was scared of them losing faith in me and not wanting to work with me again. If I had no motivation, how could I motivate them?
I had been struggling alone with a major family issue that sprung up out of the blue. I started to feel ill and all I wanted to do was lie in a darkened room and cry. I actually felt like I was in mourning. I was mourning my old self that felt like it had died with no chance of being resurrected.
I missed a number of valuable opportunities that were right under my nose but that I either missed until it was too late, or quite simply, didn’t have the energy or inclination to take advantage of.
I felt desperate. I felt alone. Two weeks went by and then something happened. A video popped up in my inbox from the wonderful Sarah Marshall from Tapping Into Money Girl. I felt compelled to stop everything and watch. And it was as though she was talking to me personally.
I was self-sabotaging!
My business had been going so well that I had got scared. I had hit a money block of taking it to the next level. The self-doubt has started to creep in, who was I to be earning that level of money? What if I hit a level that I couldn’t sustain? Would people expect more of me if I took things to the next level.
Once I had taken a step back after watching Sarah’s video, I realised what I had been doing. I had been shortcutting tasks. I had been talking myself into a feeling of self-despair. I had stopped taking care of myself and as the two are so intricately entwined, my business was suffering.
This was such a huge admission to make to myself, but it had to be done.
Time to recharge
I took a couple of days to recharge my batteries. I took a cold hard look at my business and knew things had to change. I had to stop giving so much of myself away for free. I had to practice what I preached and start charging my worth. I had to take this business to a whole new level. I owed it to myself and to my clients who needed what I had to offer.
And now, a month on, I am so much happier. I have taken on the support I needed to really move the business forward. I have had a brand refresh, I have had a price review and I have new packages to offer.
And wow! What a difference it has made. My business is now rocketing once again and I am in exactly the right mindset to enjoy it and make the most of it.
If you are feeling stuck and you have no motivation, please don’t do as I did for so long and suffer in silence. Speak to someone, get support, drop me a line if you like and use me as a sounding board. That first step of reaching out for help is the hardest but you will be so glad you did.